Brent Hawkins Recovery Fund
Monday, July 4, 2011
Funeral Services
The funeral will be Tuesday, July 5th at 3pm. Their will be a viewing at 2:00 prior to the services. It will be held at The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints, 11838 Linden Caldwell, ID.
The grave side service will take place the following day in Soda Springs at 2:30.
Wednesday, June 29, 2011
Passing of Brent Hawkisn
I just wanted to let you know that my brother, Brent Hawkins passed away this afternoon. He was having trouble breathing and sent by ambulance to the hospital. He went into cardiac arrest and cpr was performed.They were not able to save him. His wife was at the hopital with him and we send our regrets to her. I will donate the rest of Brent Hawkins Recovery Fund to go toward funeral expenses.
See the blog later for the funeral details and photos if you are not able to make it. He had been trying so hard these last few months. He had stopped smoking as well and wanted to get his patriartical blessing soon. His stuggles have been many. He is in a better place and he passed knowing he is loved by many.
Love,
Jennifer
See the blog later for the funeral details and photos if you are not able to make it. He had been trying so hard these last few months. He had stopped smoking as well and wanted to get his patriartical blessing soon. His stuggles have been many. He is in a better place and he passed knowing he is loved by many.
Love,
Jennifer
Saturday, April 2, 2011
UPDATE...MIRACLES
Well it has been a while since the ball started rolling but I wanted to tell you a few updates. FIRST he is doing very well...for coming from where he was. I have spent $620 on doctor visits, labs, and medications thus far. Treating him outpatient is going well. SECOND, thanks for all those who have helped. I could not be doing this without your help. THIRD, it is quite miraculous to hear him talk about church, tithing, preparing for the temple, etc. I am so pleased!!! We can never give up on people because the Lord knows when souls are ready to come back to Him.
Friday, February 18, 2011
Current Fund Amount:
Fund Amount:$3,298
It can take a few days for transfers to post to account
Pledge Amounts:
$5,000
Thanks so much to everyone who has donated & pledged!!!
It can take a few days for transfers to post to account
Pledge Amounts:
$5,000
Thanks so much to everyone who has donated & pledged!!!
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
Current Fund Amount:
Fund Amount:$2,198
It can take a few days for transfers to post to account
Pledge Amounts:
$5,000
Thanks so much to everyone who has donated & pledged!!!
It can take a few days for transfers to post to account
Pledge Amounts:
$5,000
Thanks so much to everyone who has donated & pledged!!!
Monday, February 14, 2011
MY STORY
Dear Family and Friends,
I have had so much in my heart this morning. I have been taught so very much through all this. It has only strengthened my testimony. I was talking to Bryant last night and we were reflecting on Nephi in the Book of Mormon: ( http://lds.org/scriptures/bofm?lang=eng)
1 Nephi 3:7 it says: And it came to pass that I, Nephi, said unto my father: I will go and do the things which the Lord hath commanded, for I know that the Lord giveth no commandments unto the children of men, save he shall prepare a way for them that they may accomplish the thing which he commandeth them.
I want to explain something about myself. I am promised in my patriartical blessing that there will be those who will have problems in their life and I will be able to assist and comfort them because of my faith.
There was a time in my life and for years on and off that I felt a complete lack of faith and that God was not in my life. I would pray and no answers would come. I would read my scriptures and go to the temple and feel empty. I suffered from an eating disorder, called Binge Eating Disorder. Eating so much (bags of candy, entire bowl of cookie dough, entire containers of ice cream, all the Halloween candy (kids), and it goes on and on) till one feels numb. You no longer feel inside.
I would gain 20 pounds in 1-2 weeks and beat myself up to no end. I would pull myself out of the gutter and lose those 20 pounds and dedicate myself to never doing it again. Never binging. It is not overeating at Christmas or thanksgiving. It is full of shame and hiding. Then the cycle would return. Usually there was a trigger that would set it off and I couldn't deal with it and I would return to the only thing that seemed to make it easier to deal with- (for others it may be drugs, pornography, alcohol, etc.)
People would talk about how I was small but inside I was dying. I love to do outside things. It is a gift from my father. I love nature and I like to be physically active. I like to push myself and try new things. I like to camp, hike, bike, and run. I could not do the things I liked to do because I was unable to break free from the cycle.
This went on for years with no success. I then started exercising. I felt some of the depression lifted. If I couldn't exercise it would plummet me back in the cycle. You have to understand through all this I had 5 children, completed a nursing degree, husband completed a degree, dealt with financial difficulties that were very difficult for me, and a marriage that needed serious improvement.
Exercising helped but not enough. The cycle continued for more years. I was still plagued with binge eating and depression. Then I was introduced to the 12 steps and went to OA (overeaters Annoymous) meetings for over a year. I cut sugar completely out of my life for one year and I had to call a sponsor every day just to keep from binging. Yes I still binged but it was less. I tasted some freedom. Then I shared the gospel with someone who was in the program and she said that "if you are not going to work the program, I can't be your sponsor". But she taught me to search out "my God". I searched. I read the book of Mormon three times that year and gained a strong testimony of its truthfulness. I went to the temple every week during this time. I felt the spirit in my life. I still didn't feel complete freedom. I left OA wondering what to do.
During this time, I received a strong impression I needed to go to "moderation" in my eating. I needed to return to balance. I needed to be healthy but enjoy a bowl of ice cream as well. So I let go. Shortly after I found myself pregnant with my 4th child. My marriage was improving through all of this. When I was 7 month pregnant Bryant got a job in Houston. It is a miraculous story. In short, we bought and house, sold a house (when houses were not selling), moved to Houston , started a new job, and had a baby in a period of 2 months.
Now we had arrived- financial freedom. So I thought. We were on a new grads wage with soon to be 4 children. We decided to have a fifth child and I told Bryant "If we are going to have a fifth child then I better be pregnant a few moths after my 4th was born. I was wearing out but we felt strongly that there was one more child for us. My 4th baby was 5 months old and I was pregnant.
When my 5th was 3 months old I went to work full time. We were getting into debt to feed and clothe a family of 7 on a new grads wage. During this time I would drag myself to go exercise to keep from plummeting into a depression. I had so much to do and depression/binging did not fit into my schedule: 5 kids, work, husband, house to clean, meals to cook, church, kids activities, etc.
Bryant would spend his evenings running kids around while I worked, serving dinner, put kids to bed, and homework. After 18 months we were finally out of debt. We had a teen and babies in the house with all the needs in-between. It was hard to be gone every evening and then I rearranged my schedule to work on night shift, hoping to be home in the evenings.
This was the straw that broke the camels back. I couldn't sleep during the day because I just physically couldn't. I plummeted into the worst depression of my life. I felt no hope and no way out. After 5 months Bryant sought help for his wife. He said- I need my wife back. Marriage, kids, and life is a lot of work and I had checked out. I couldn't heal. I couldn't find my way back. I functioned like a robot. In a numb state. Gaining weight from binging and losing my faith (faith has a very short shelf life). My husband believed in me. He went to the Bishop for support.
Depression was getting the best of me. I had battled it for almost 20 years and it had finally won. I had nothing else to give. I had no energy for life. I kept going because I was working, a mother, wife, etc but I was no longer present. How was I to function in this wicked world any longer- I didn't see a way. I was encouraged to seek psychiatric help from my bishop. I was suppose to always be strong. My husband learned to love me depressed. It was hard for him but I needed him so very much.
I went to see a psychiatrist and I am now on an antidepressant. I feel free. I can't believe it. I feel like me. I went to counseling for a while and found more healing that I needed. I really was missing something in my brain and no amount of pulling myself back up could put it there. I felt like God said, "now is the time to not suffer anymore. now is the time to recover for good this time". I found my eating disorder does not plague me as much- I still have my husband lock up candy and cookies. I throw away cakes the next day after birthdays, and I continue to exercise and eat healthy but enjoy chocolate, cakes, cookies, and candy in moderation. I went back onto the evening shift and have started this week on a 7 am - 7pm job. I can be home every evening. I feel very blessed.
I will always be binge eater and have tendencies toward depression. It is the thorn in my side. I wish I could say I was "cured". There is always risk for relapse. I feel peace right now. I don't feel the extremes- just the normal up and downs of life. I feel hope. I feel and it is great to feel.
So when I see my brother suffering. I was sensitive to when the time was right to help him. It is now!!! His is very complex because of what drugs do to the brain and the nature of a drug addiction.
When Nephi was commanded to go and get the plates, he went with faith knowing that the Lord would prepare a way for them that they may accomplish the thing which he commandeth them. Why can't I have faith in that as well. Was it easy- no. His brothers tried to kill him, Laban tried to kill him, he tried and didn't succeed the first 2 times but then the Lord opened a way. I can't not help him. I feel commanded to.
Brent sent this text to my mom last night...
Brent texted me last night at 9:37 pm.
"I went to church and talked to the bishop today and cleaned house last night."
The way will open up. Nephi was to build a ship and his brothers mocked him for thinking he could build a ship. He was a wealthy city boy. The one thing he had was Faith to know he could do what the lord commanded.
I can't deny that he needs a "rescue". The prophet has spoken so much about it recently. I know 2+2=does not equal 30,000, but 2+2+Faith in Jesus Christ=accomplishing what the Lord has commanded.
What am I suppose to do? Do His will- no more, no less.
Please help me. I look at the donations that have come- some are anonymous and some are not. Most from people that don't even know him. Every little bit helps. I have been very humbled by this experience. I have learned that by small and simple things are great things brought to pass. I have a testimony that the worth of Souls is Great in the sight of God.
Love,
Jennifer
I have had so much in my heart this morning. I have been taught so very much through all this. It has only strengthened my testimony. I was talking to Bryant last night and we were reflecting on Nephi in the Book of Mormon: ( http://lds.org/scriptures/bofm?lang=eng)
1 Nephi 3:7 it says: And it came to pass that I, Nephi, said unto my father: I will go and do the things which the Lord hath commanded, for I know that the Lord giveth no commandments unto the children of men, save he shall prepare a way for them that they may accomplish the thing which he commandeth them.
I want to explain something about myself. I am promised in my patriartical blessing that there will be those who will have problems in their life and I will be able to assist and comfort them because of my faith.
There was a time in my life and for years on and off that I felt a complete lack of faith and that God was not in my life. I would pray and no answers would come. I would read my scriptures and go to the temple and feel empty. I suffered from an eating disorder, called Binge Eating Disorder. Eating so much (bags of candy, entire bowl of cookie dough, entire containers of ice cream, all the Halloween candy (kids), and it goes on and on) till one feels numb. You no longer feel inside.
I would gain 20 pounds in 1-2 weeks and beat myself up to no end. I would pull myself out of the gutter and lose those 20 pounds and dedicate myself to never doing it again. Never binging. It is not overeating at Christmas or thanksgiving. It is full of shame and hiding. Then the cycle would return. Usually there was a trigger that would set it off and I couldn't deal with it and I would return to the only thing that seemed to make it easier to deal with- (for others it may be drugs, pornography, alcohol, etc.)
People would talk about how I was small but inside I was dying. I love to do outside things. It is a gift from my father. I love nature and I like to be physically active. I like to push myself and try new things. I like to camp, hike, bike, and run. I could not do the things I liked to do because I was unable to break free from the cycle.
This went on for years with no success. I then started exercising. I felt some of the depression lifted. If I couldn't exercise it would plummet me back in the cycle. You have to understand through all this I had 5 children, completed a nursing degree, husband completed a degree, dealt with financial difficulties that were very difficult for me, and a marriage that needed serious improvement.
Exercising helped but not enough. The cycle continued for more years. I was still plagued with binge eating and depression. Then I was introduced to the 12 steps and went to OA (overeaters Annoymous) meetings for over a year. I cut sugar completely out of my life for one year and I had to call a sponsor every day just to keep from binging. Yes I still binged but it was less. I tasted some freedom. Then I shared the gospel with someone who was in the program and she said that "if you are not going to work the program, I can't be your sponsor". But she taught me to search out "my God". I searched. I read the book of Mormon three times that year and gained a strong testimony of its truthfulness. I went to the temple every week during this time. I felt the spirit in my life. I still didn't feel complete freedom. I left OA wondering what to do.
During this time, I received a strong impression I needed to go to "moderation" in my eating. I needed to return to balance. I needed to be healthy but enjoy a bowl of ice cream as well. So I let go. Shortly after I found myself pregnant with my 4th child. My marriage was improving through all of this. When I was 7 month pregnant Bryant got a job in Houston. It is a miraculous story. In short, we bought and house, sold a house (when houses were not selling), moved to Houston , started a new job, and had a baby in a period of 2 months.
Now we had arrived- financial freedom. So I thought. We were on a new grads wage with soon to be 4 children. We decided to have a fifth child and I told Bryant "If we are going to have a fifth child then I better be pregnant a few moths after my 4th was born. I was wearing out but we felt strongly that there was one more child for us. My 4th baby was 5 months old and I was pregnant.
When my 5th was 3 months old I went to work full time. We were getting into debt to feed and clothe a family of 7 on a new grads wage. During this time I would drag myself to go exercise to keep from plummeting into a depression. I had so much to do and depression/binging did not fit into my schedule: 5 kids, work, husband, house to clean, meals to cook, church, kids activities, etc.
Bryant would spend his evenings running kids around while I worked, serving dinner, put kids to bed, and homework. After 18 months we were finally out of debt. We had a teen and babies in the house with all the needs in-between. It was hard to be gone every evening and then I rearranged my schedule to work on night shift, hoping to be home in the evenings.
This was the straw that broke the camels back. I couldn't sleep during the day because I just physically couldn't. I plummeted into the worst depression of my life. I felt no hope and no way out. After 5 months Bryant sought help for his wife. He said- I need my wife back. Marriage, kids, and life is a lot of work and I had checked out. I couldn't heal. I couldn't find my way back. I functioned like a robot. In a numb state. Gaining weight from binging and losing my faith (faith has a very short shelf life). My husband believed in me. He went to the Bishop for support.
Depression was getting the best of me. I had battled it for almost 20 years and it had finally won. I had nothing else to give. I had no energy for life. I kept going because I was working, a mother, wife, etc but I was no longer present. How was I to function in this wicked world any longer- I didn't see a way. I was encouraged to seek psychiatric help from my bishop. I was suppose to always be strong. My husband learned to love me depressed. It was hard for him but I needed him so very much.
I went to see a psychiatrist and I am now on an antidepressant. I feel free. I can't believe it. I feel like me. I went to counseling for a while and found more healing that I needed. I really was missing something in my brain and no amount of pulling myself back up could put it there. I felt like God said, "now is the time to not suffer anymore. now is the time to recover for good this time". I found my eating disorder does not plague me as much- I still have my husband lock up candy and cookies. I throw away cakes the next day after birthdays, and I continue to exercise and eat healthy but enjoy chocolate, cakes, cookies, and candy in moderation. I went back onto the evening shift and have started this week on a 7 am - 7pm job. I can be home every evening. I feel very blessed.
I will always be binge eater and have tendencies toward depression. It is the thorn in my side. I wish I could say I was "cured". There is always risk for relapse. I feel peace right now. I don't feel the extremes- just the normal up and downs of life. I feel hope. I feel and it is great to feel.
So when I see my brother suffering. I was sensitive to when the time was right to help him. It is now!!! His is very complex because of what drugs do to the brain and the nature of a drug addiction.
When Nephi was commanded to go and get the plates, he went with faith knowing that the Lord would prepare a way for them that they may accomplish the thing which he commandeth them. Why can't I have faith in that as well. Was it easy- no. His brothers tried to kill him, Laban tried to kill him, he tried and didn't succeed the first 2 times but then the Lord opened a way. I can't not help him. I feel commanded to.
Brent sent this text to my mom last night...
Brent texted me last night at 9:37 pm.
"I went to church and talked to the bishop today and cleaned house last night."
The way will open up. Nephi was to build a ship and his brothers mocked him for thinking he could build a ship. He was a wealthy city boy. The one thing he had was Faith to know he could do what the lord commanded.
I can't deny that he needs a "rescue". The prophet has spoken so much about it recently. I know 2+2=does not equal 30,000, but 2+2+Faith in Jesus Christ=accomplishing what the Lord has commanded.
What am I suppose to do? Do His will- no more, no less.
Please help me. I look at the donations that have come- some are anonymous and some are not. Most from people that don't even know him. Every little bit helps. I have been very humbled by this experience. I have learned that by small and simple things are great things brought to pass. I have a testimony that the worth of Souls is Great in the sight of God.
Love,
Jennifer
Current Fund Amount:
$1798
It can take a few days for transfers to post to account
Thanks so much to everyone who has donated!!!
It can take a few days for transfers to post to account
Thanks so much to everyone who has donated!!!
Friday, February 11, 2011
TO THE RESCUE: Brent Hawkins
Dear Family and Friends,
Good News!!! Discount obtained through my current employer for a rehab. Keep Reading for more info...
I am training for a 1/2 marathon and as I am training I spend a lot of time running. As I run I have time to reflect and think. We had our stake conference on Sunday and it was a broadcast to Texas, Oklahoma, and New Mexico stakes. We had the privilege of hearing the prophet, President Monson, speak on "to the rescue". It has kept my heart close to what we must accomplish to do our part in this rescue. I have had my faith tried and tested in this as well. I keep thinking back to when I felt so strongly about this, the night I was working at the hospital and knew that something had to be done. Below are some of the things that have transpired these past few days that show how urgent he needs help:
1. Brent sent the following text. It shows he is ready for help.
Text between Brent and his mom.
Mom: Glad you are detoxing. What is the next step for you?
Brent: yeah fun!! Will if were doing this together, married or single counseling, church, fixing the brain so we don’t do any thinking errors, goals, a plan something like that. We need guidance no more bad triggers.
2. Brent is still at home- can't drive. He is not on any medications right now. He is detoxing and very unstable. He needs to get into an inpatient rehab as soon as possible. He is very anxious and needs acute psychiatric help. He needs acute spiritual help. He needs acute medical help.
3. His wife is in rehab and hers will be done next Friday. She is not going back home till Brent gets help.
4. Possible job opportunity, out of the welding industry. He is very talented with his hands. This a possible job that would allow him to work in a great atmosphere. I will give further details once they are worked out. He needs to be stabilized to work.
5. Contract For Brent Hawkins: In process of getting these commitments. We need to handle this with care do to his mental state.
I, Brent Hawkins, agree to go into rehabilitation and have it paid for by many caring people on the following conditions:
• I will return to church activity following rehab
• I will go to individual and marriage counseling following rehab.
• I will go to 12 step meetings through the Addiction Recovery Program.
• I will take prescribed medications as directed only.
• I will continue to follow-up with medical and psychiatric care following rehab.
• I will go back to work
Sign ______________________
Date ______________________
6. Obtained a 15% discount employer's prevention and recovery center. I will keep you posted on the amount but I think I will be able to do it for more like $30,000 depending on many factors. I was at work and I showed my director the blog for Brent's recovery and what I am trying to do to get him help. She said that our hospital system had a rehab center as well (link: https://www.mhparc.org/index.php ). I have contacted them and I was able to get the 15% discount for Brent. This should save several thousand dollars. Their detox costs are similar to the hospital stay but their 30 day program is less than Meninger Clinic, which is a psych/rehab hospital not a rehab with medical/psychiatric help. PARC offers a 3 day intense family program in their program.
I have thought and prayed about what to do. I have gone to the temple with my husband, fasted , and prayed. I have reflected on the story of the Prodigal son (a need to kill the fatted calf as he wants to return to the fold), the good Samaritan (don't pass by a wounded stranger), the parable of the lost sheep (search until he is found), and the parable of the lost coin (swept every corner till coin is found). I have prayed for guidance and I keep going back to this months ensign (Link to page: http://lds.org/ensign/2011/02/parables-of-the-lost-and-found?lang=eng). This morning I was reading in the Scriptures in The Book of Mormon: Alma 1:30 and read "And thus, in their prosperous circumstances, they did not send away any who were naked, or that were hungry, or that were athirst, or that were sick, or that had not been nourished; and they did not set their hearts upon riches; therefore they were liberal to all, both old and young, both bond and free, both male and female, whether out of the church or in the church, having no respect to persons as to those who stood in need." In my heart, I know that I have been so blessed but this is bigger than what I can do. Please help me.
I have tried to make it easy for people to donate. I am attempting to make it easier if a po box or pledge is best for you.
How to donate: If you feel you may have even $1 to help please donate- it will add up.
1. Pledge a certain amount of money by sending an email to me: jenniferbartschi@gmail.com. If there are conditions on your pledge then please let me know what you desire your money to go to.
3. Mail a check made out to "Brent Hawkins Recovery Fund". I have had several people ask to send a check. I have set up a po box for 6 months (shortest length available). Send Checks to: Brent Hawkins Recovery Fund, P.O. Box 2529, Cypress, TX 77410
No money is used for this cost. I have covered this myself.
2..Go to a Wells Fargo Branch and make check payable to "Brent Hawkins recovery fund". If they ask for a name- Jennifer Bartschi is the name and only I authorize where the funds will go.
2. Go to your bank online and do it electronically with the account number and routing number.
acct # 1381045473 routing # 111900659
If they want a name use Jennifer Bartschi. Some people have had difficulty in transferring because they want a name.
All money will be only used directly related to recovery costs.
Do to the acuteness of the situation I have made a decision to put a time on when a decision will be made regarding his recovery. Money will be accepted after that date for long-term costs for doctors or counseling if you so desires.
His wife gets out of rehab in 1 week and I desire to send him rehab before she gets out so he can start a path to recovery on his own. If I have the money this is the plan. I want people who donate to understand what they are donating to:
Please make all pledges and donations by Next Thursday, February 17th and the decision will be made between the following plans:
Plan 1: (optimal) Fly (drive if not able to fly- brother Mike has volunteered to drive him). Brent and his wife down to Houston the weekend of February 19th and get him admitted to Memorial Hermann Prevention and recovery center (link: https://www.mhparc.org/index.php ) for a 30 day inpatient rehab. Followed by local outpatient services in his home location once stable.
Plan 2: Send him to a local psychiatrist and local medical doctor for outpatient care. We have an appointment set for a Psychiatrist, Dr. Hoopes. He is a good doctor but It is a few weeks till his appointment. We could not get anything sooner with this doctor. If he can't wait that long we will try another doctor who has openings sooner.
Remember to check out updates of progress and fund amounts on the blog I have set up for his recovery: http://www.brenthawkinsrecoveryfund.blogspot.com/
His story is at the end of the blog in my original email.
Please forward via email, facebook, twitter, etc.
Love,
Jennifer (a sister to the rescue)
Good News!!! Discount obtained through my current employer for a rehab. Keep Reading for more info...
I am training for a 1/2 marathon and as I am training I spend a lot of time running. As I run I have time to reflect and think. We had our stake conference on Sunday and it was a broadcast to Texas, Oklahoma, and New Mexico stakes. We had the privilege of hearing the prophet, President Monson, speak on "to the rescue". It has kept my heart close to what we must accomplish to do our part in this rescue. I have had my faith tried and tested in this as well. I keep thinking back to when I felt so strongly about this, the night I was working at the hospital and knew that something had to be done. Below are some of the things that have transpired these past few days that show how urgent he needs help:
1. Brent sent the following text. It shows he is ready for help.
Text between Brent and his mom.
Mom: Glad you are detoxing. What is the next step for you?
Brent: yeah fun!! Will if were doing this together, married or single counseling, church, fixing the brain so we don’t do any thinking errors, goals, a plan something like that. We need guidance no more bad triggers.
2. Brent is still at home- can't drive. He is not on any medications right now. He is detoxing and very unstable. He needs to get into an inpatient rehab as soon as possible. He is very anxious and needs acute psychiatric help. He needs acute spiritual help. He needs acute medical help.
3. His wife is in rehab and hers will be done next Friday. She is not going back home till Brent gets help.
4. Possible job opportunity, out of the welding industry. He is very talented with his hands. This a possible job that would allow him to work in a great atmosphere. I will give further details once they are worked out. He needs to be stabilized to work.
5. Contract For Brent Hawkins: In process of getting these commitments. We need to handle this with care do to his mental state.
I, Brent Hawkins, agree to go into rehabilitation and have it paid for by many caring people on the following conditions:
• I will return to church activity following rehab
• I will go to individual and marriage counseling following rehab.
• I will go to 12 step meetings through the Addiction Recovery Program.
• I will take prescribed medications as directed only.
• I will continue to follow-up with medical and psychiatric care following rehab.
• I will go back to work
Sign ______________________
Date ______________________
6. Obtained a 15% discount employer's prevention and recovery center. I will keep you posted on the amount but I think I will be able to do it for more like $30,000 depending on many factors. I was at work and I showed my director the blog for Brent's recovery and what I am trying to do to get him help. She said that our hospital system had a rehab center as well (link: https://www.mhparc.org/index.php ). I have contacted them and I was able to get the 15% discount for Brent. This should save several thousand dollars. Their detox costs are similar to the hospital stay but their 30 day program is less than Meninger Clinic, which is a psych/rehab hospital not a rehab with medical/psychiatric help. PARC offers a 3 day intense family program in their program.
I have thought and prayed about what to do. I have gone to the temple with my husband, fasted , and prayed. I have reflected on the story of the Prodigal son (a need to kill the fatted calf as he wants to return to the fold), the good Samaritan (don't pass by a wounded stranger), the parable of the lost sheep (search until he is found), and the parable of the lost coin (swept every corner till coin is found). I have prayed for guidance and I keep going back to this months ensign (Link to page: http://lds.org/ensign/2011/02/parables-of-the-lost-and-found?lang=eng). This morning I was reading in the Scriptures in The Book of Mormon: Alma 1:30 and read "And thus, in their prosperous circumstances, they did not send away any who were naked, or that were hungry, or that were athirst, or that were sick, or that had not been nourished; and they did not set their hearts upon riches; therefore they were liberal to all, both old and young, both bond and free, both male and female, whether out of the church or in the church, having no respect to persons as to those who stood in need." In my heart, I know that I have been so blessed but this is bigger than what I can do. Please help me.
I have tried to make it easy for people to donate. I am attempting to make it easier if a po box or pledge is best for you.
How to donate: If you feel you may have even $1 to help please donate- it will add up.
1. Pledge a certain amount of money by sending an email to me: jenniferbartschi@gmail.com. If there are conditions on your pledge then please let me know what you desire your money to go to.
3. Mail a check made out to "Brent Hawkins Recovery Fund". I have had several people ask to send a check. I have set up a po box for 6 months (shortest length available). Send Checks to: Brent Hawkins Recovery Fund, P.O. Box 2529, Cypress, TX 77410
No money is used for this cost. I have covered this myself.
2..Go to a Wells Fargo Branch and make check payable to "Brent Hawkins recovery fund". If they ask for a name- Jennifer Bartschi is the name and only I authorize where the funds will go.
2. Go to your bank online and do it electronically with the account number and routing number.
acct # 1381045473 routing # 111900659
If they want a name use Jennifer Bartschi. Some people have had difficulty in transferring because they want a name.
All money will be only used directly related to recovery costs.
Do to the acuteness of the situation I have made a decision to put a time on when a decision will be made regarding his recovery. Money will be accepted after that date for long-term costs for doctors or counseling if you so desires.
His wife gets out of rehab in 1 week and I desire to send him rehab before she gets out so he can start a path to recovery on his own. If I have the money this is the plan. I want people who donate to understand what they are donating to:
Please make all pledges and donations by Next Thursday, February 17th and the decision will be made between the following plans:
Plan 1: (optimal) Fly (drive if not able to fly- brother Mike has volunteered to drive him). Brent and his wife down to Houston the weekend of February 19th and get him admitted to Memorial Hermann Prevention and recovery center (link: https://www.mhparc.org/index.php ) for a 30 day inpatient rehab. Followed by local outpatient services in his home location once stable.
Plan 2: Send him to a local psychiatrist and local medical doctor for outpatient care. We have an appointment set for a Psychiatrist, Dr. Hoopes. He is a good doctor but It is a few weeks till his appointment. We could not get anything sooner with this doctor. If he can't wait that long we will try another doctor who has openings sooner.
Remember to check out updates of progress and fund amounts on the blog I have set up for his recovery: http://www.brenthawkinsrecoveryfund.blogspot.com/
His story is at the end of the blog in my original email.
Please forward via email, facebook, twitter, etc.
Love,
Jennifer (a sister to the rescue)
Monday, February 7, 2011
Saturday, February 5, 2011
Friday, February 4, 2011
Prayer, Fast, Ensign, Christmas Story, Brent Hawkins Recovery Fund
Wow...Snow in Houston. Right now 25 degrees and a dusting of snow on everything outside. School is canceled.
Last night I was feeling the enormity of my task at hand. I have never done anything like this. I sat at the chair near the computer and said a prayer. I looked up and the current Ensign was sitting on the computer desk and I saw on the front cover the word "RESCUE" . I saw a page number below it and turned to it. (Link to page: http://lds.org/ensign/2011/02/parables-of-the-lost-and-found?lang=eng) I felt strength come back to me as I read that I truly am doing His will and He will open the way, I am proceeding with faith.
I called a facility in Utah yesterday and asked them about how they addressed specifically the psychiatric needs of the patient. I was told that they had a good psychiatrist that saw the patients. I told him I was looking into the Meninger Clinic http://www.menningerclinic.com/index.aspx in Houston. His voice raised and he said...THEY ARE THE BEST. THEY HAVE SOME OF THE BEST MINDS IN THE COUTNRY. What are the Meninger Clinic rates?...$1,200 dollars a day. This facility in Utah is $1,000 day.
I would like to send Brent to the Meninger Clinic. It is a 6-8 week program at $1,200 a day. Do the math and I know- It is very expensive. My heart started to be prepared to help Brent this past Christmas when I read "A Christmas Dress for Ellen" retold by Thomas S. Monson. Listen to the story book on YouTube and you will understand why I am prepared for a miracle... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cLDJDFa8XSs In my heart at Christmas time I said, I need to deliver the "crates" to Brent. I didn't know how at the time. I just know my heart ached for him and I didn't know what to do exactly.
I found out earlier yesterday that Brent's wife Joanna had pleaded in prayer to the Lord for a way for Brent get help on the very night that I recieved my answer; how I could send the "crates" like in the Christmas story. I just know with every fiber of my being that he is willing to get help and needs to get help now. Help me send the "Crates".
Love,
Jennifer
p.s.
Please join us in our special fast on Sunday that we will be able to raise enough funds to send Brent.
Last night I was feeling the enormity of my task at hand. I have never done anything like this. I sat at the chair near the computer and said a prayer. I looked up and the current Ensign was sitting on the computer desk and I saw on the front cover the word "RESCUE" . I saw a page number below it and turned to it. (Link to page: http://lds.org/ensign/2011/02/parables-of-the-lost-and-found?lang=eng) I felt strength come back to me as I read that I truly am doing His will and He will open the way, I am proceeding with faith.
I called a facility in Utah yesterday and asked them about how they addressed specifically the psychiatric needs of the patient. I was told that they had a good psychiatrist that saw the patients. I told him I was looking into the Meninger Clinic http://www.menningerclinic.com/index.aspx in Houston. His voice raised and he said...THEY ARE THE BEST. THEY HAVE SOME OF THE BEST MINDS IN THE COUTNRY. What are the Meninger Clinic rates?...$1,200 dollars a day. This facility in Utah is $1,000 day.
I would like to send Brent to the Meninger Clinic. It is a 6-8 week program at $1,200 a day. Do the math and I know- It is very expensive. My heart started to be prepared to help Brent this past Christmas when I read "A Christmas Dress for Ellen" retold by Thomas S. Monson. Listen to the story book on YouTube and you will understand why I am prepared for a miracle... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cLDJDFa8XSs In my heart at Christmas time I said, I need to deliver the "crates" to Brent. I didn't know how at the time. I just know my heart ached for him and I didn't know what to do exactly.
I found out earlier yesterday that Brent's wife Joanna had pleaded in prayer to the Lord for a way for Brent get help on the very night that I recieved my answer; how I could send the "crates" like in the Christmas story. I just know with every fiber of my being that he is willing to get help and needs to get help now. Help me send the "Crates".
Love,
Jennifer
p.s.
Please join us in our special fast on Sunday that we will be able to raise enough funds to send Brent.
Thursday, February 3, 2011
Donation Clarification
Thanks so much for your interest and help in supporting Brent. Keep up the good work and we will be able to get him into a clinic/rehab.
Every little bit helps!!! Remember even small donations add up.
I have had inquiries how to donate electronically. I just talked to the bank about how to donate electronically. They said there are 2 ways to donate:
1. Go into a Wells Fargo branch and make a check to "Brent Hawkins Recovery Fund"
2. Go to your bank online and do it electronically with the account number and routing number.
acct # 1381045473 routing # 111900659
Thanks so very much!
Love Brent's sister,
Jennifer
Please forward
Every little bit helps!!! Remember even small donations add up.
I have had inquiries how to donate electronically. I just talked to the bank about how to donate electronically. They said there are 2 ways to donate:
1. Go into a Wells Fargo branch and make a check to "Brent Hawkins Recovery Fund"
2. Go to your bank online and do it electronically with the account number and routing number.
acct # 1381045473 routing # 111900659
Thanks so very much!
Love Brent's sister,
Jennifer
Please forward
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
Clinic that would be a good fit for Him!!!
Clinic Link for Brent's recovery.
ALSO, for those that can participate we are having a special fast on Sunday for him and his family. I have been doing some research and there is a psychiatric/rehab clinic here in Houston that is excellent. Because of it being more medical and psychiatric in nature for long term rehabilitation and functioning, it will require a longer stay and more medical care than originally thought. Due to this I need more money than originally thought (possibly up to $100,000). I contacted the facility today and it will be a good fit for him. I ask that you please donate as soon as possible. Even if everyone donates a small amount it adds up and can make it possible. Thanks!!!!
ALSO, for those that can participate we are having a special fast on Sunday for him and his family. I have been doing some research and there is a psychiatric/rehab clinic here in Houston that is excellent. Because of it being more medical and psychiatric in nature for long term rehabilitation and functioning, it will require a longer stay and more medical care than originally thought. Due to this I need more money than originally thought (possibly up to $100,000). I contacted the facility today and it will be a good fit for him. I ask that you please donate as soon as possible. Even if everyone donates a small amount it adds up and can make it possible. Thanks!!!!
How to donate
The fund is set up at Wells Fargo. You can can make donations to the "Brent Hawkins Recovery Fund".
What is the Goal? I am doing research on highly rated and successful inpatient rehab centers. There is no center we have decided on at this time but the cost will probably range from $80,000- $100,000 depending on where and how long is needed to get adequate medical and psychiatric care. Any donation great or small is appreciated!!!
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